dream baby dream - suicide

for most males (and yeah, i'm basing this on my own experience) what attracts us to the Female Dominant lifestyle in the first place is a combination of the ego and pornography. i make no bones about it - when i was an adolescent, thinking about being restrained - or even being beaten - by Women and Girls - excited me. more than anything else i could imagine.

adolescence raised the bar. body hair, mood-swings and touching myself every chance i got. even if i wasn't hauling at my meat, i was day-dreaming about it. if there was a power imbalance to be imagined, the chances are, i've brooded about it at one time or another.

the thing is, there's a world of difference between fantasy and reality. in fantasies, there are no limits - whether in choice of partner(s) or in activities. reality is a whole 'nother sack of squirrels.

just as real live Women don't have staples round their navels, fantasy Dommes have only attractive personality-facets.

fantasy-Dommes don't menstruate, for instance, unless the guy with a handful of his lap gets off on it.

the male ego leads to erection leads to fantasy leads to male orgasm. this is pretty much compulsory from adolescence for a good few years. after that, it's time to shit or get off the pot, as my sunday-school teacher used to say.